alone

there are so many things i want you to know

so many things i wish i could say

so many words that i know you will never hear

you do something to me i can't explain..

i get all warm and tingly inside whenever you're near

but those feelings are gone..

along with my heart..

which has been yours from the very start..

you ripped it out..

and started messin around

you say you like me

but those three words im beginning to doubt

where are you when i need you the most..

when i need someone to talk to..

or when i cry..

you're only there when you need something from me

if you want my kiss..

if you want my love

you come in and make me fall for you all over again

then when you've had enough

you leave me alone

without so much as a goodbye

i try to be strong

to go with the flow..

but its hard to convince myself that this is right..

when i know inside that its wrong..

you say we're just friends..

and that nothing should happen..

then you say you love me..

that you want me forever

i dont understand

and i know i never will..

but i've taken your hand..

and i let you leave me hanging...

never knowing when you'll come to save me..

but sometimes you never come..

and im left to climb to safety by myself..

but i can't..

i keep falling back down, down..

never escaping the place im in..

until you come and lift me up..

then let me fall.

alone.