i hate that i hurt you

I hate that I hurt you…
In so many ways…
I hate that I love you…
And cause you so much pain…
I hate all the nasty words…
All the crazy moods…
That come and go like an ocean tide…
The crashing waves…
Mix with your salty tears…
As you cry silently so I can’t hear…
I wish that we could be like Harold and Maude…
So different, but still the same…
I hate that we never talk…
Or draw on the sidewalk with chalk…
We only sing songs of pain…
Songs of death…
Never songs about happy things…
Like love, or life…
Or swinging on swings…
In this world that we live in…
Happiness is a useless wish…
Instead you should wish for a puppy…
Or a pair of roller skates…
I hate that I hurt you…
And that I can never heal the pain…
You say my apologies are unneeded and lame…
You say it is no ones fault….
And I should not be blamed…
I hate that I love you…
In all the ways but one…
The way you need the most…
You need to be the only one…